i was hiding behind a couch
seven years old in the south
i heard she never wanted to be a mother
why the hell would he want another?
"we're not making the same mistake twice."
i left when he asked if i ruined her life

CHORUS:
i'm a regret she can't forget
a mistake with no recovery
i know she'll never love me

i was crying when i told them
twenty-four, lost my boyfriend
i said i never wanted for us to break up
"why the hell would he date such a slut?"
"he really made the same mistake twice."
i left when she asked if i ruined his life

REPEAT CHORUS

came out fourteen riding in the backseat
i can still hear the way she screamed
"who's gonna love you now, isolde?
you'll look both ways but end up alone."

REPEAT CHORUS

anxiously waiting, a flutter inside
knock at the door, can't run and hide
there's a box in the palm of your hand
and a heart dripping on my sleeve
i understand if you need to leave
but stay, please stay

CHORUS:
castle hanging below my throat
pale freckled skin, stick and pokes
move in closer, sink soft and slow
take me now but don't let go
don't let go
don't let go

memorize the ink all over my skin
don't worry about places we've been
there's a word in the back of my head
and a promise waiting on my tongue
i need you like smoke in my lungs
so stay, please stay

REPEAT CHORUS

deeper and deeper still
you to get my fill
take me, take me, take me
don't you dare let go
take me, take me, take me
wherever you go

REPEAT CHORUS

take me now but don't let go
a new hope
a new hope

she's an untouched crush
a song that never plays
and if he makes her scream
is it in the right ways?
darling, it's better when i get you wetter
take it from me
(backing vocals: oh my god, i love under the sea!)

CHORUS:
she's the girl of my dreams
are those lips meant for me?
wanna kiss her in the backseat
can i fuck her in the backseat?
knock her off her feet
kiss fuck repeat

she's an untouched crush
a song i'd never skip
and if i make her scream
will it be with my hips?
darling, it's hotter during harry potter
take it from me
(backing vocals: avada kedavra that pussy!)

REPEAT CHORUS

i'll make her come with my tongue
in ways he never could
don't care about making love
but girl, i'll fuck you good

REPEAT CHORUS

easy as 1, 2, 3
kiss fuck repeat

hold myself back when i hold you
"we are beautiful, we are doomed" on a loop
i'm slowly toxic when held too tight
i'll lose you if i let you in, i'll lose you
but i still leave the door unlocked
heart speeds up and hasn't stopped

CHORUS:
you named a guitar after me
fingers press so perfectly when we write
you're searching for a melody
baby, i'll be the harmony
give you everything you need tonight
or at least broken pieces glued together
harmony to your melody
on repeat but play it better

i hold myself back when i hold you
"we are beautiful, we are doomed" on a loop
it's all platonic when we pass out
you'll lose me if i let you in, you'll lose me
but i still leave myself exposed
heart speeds up, you must know

REPEAT CHORUS

i hold myself back when you hold me
i'll lose you if i let you in, i'll lose you

you wrote a song about me
bodies press so perfectly when we sleep
still searching for my melody
baby, i'll be your harmony
give you everything you need tonight
or at least broken pieces glued together
harmony to your melody
on repeat but play it better
we play it better

all mistakes under rug swept
we create chaos where we've been
trying to move forward
but i take all these steps back
you want to build a future
but what about the past?

PRE-CHORUS:
some people are born with tragedy in their blood
some people are born to never love enough

CHORUS:
i run, i run, i run
so you must like the chase
will you strike out
or get home safe?
slide into bed next to me
misery loves company

no method to this madness
i cling to you, then vanish
trying to see the sun
but rain's in the forecast
you want to build a future
but what about the past?

PRE-CHORUS + CHORUS

there's blood on my hands
what about you?
are your hands dirty too?
tell me, baby
are your hands clean?
get them dirty for me
get dirty with me

REPEAT CHORUS

he left me hanging, dangling on a maybe
oh i took it harder than expected
wondering if i meant it
or was it just some song i wrote
four chords as a goodbye note

CHORUS:
then he said,
"you really do deserve a lot better than me...
i could place myself above him at least
but it's shaky."

he left me waiting, hating him, like, daily
until he finally had something to say
on our fucking birthday
a reply to a song he heard
a text full of empty words

REPEAT CHORUS

time to spill the tea
he wanted some guy more than me
ghosted harder than christina ricci

swirly mini breakdown here

if he's better than my ex
why is he the one who left?
it's shaky, it's shaky

music drops out to scream:
I COULD HAVE LOVED YOU BEST

oh, he said
"you really do deserve a lot better than me."
but i can't see it like that so easy
when we're shaky
so shaky
i can't let go
don't make me