HOPELESSLY DEVOTED

i’m broken and probably toxic
not fucked in a way that’s cutely neurotic
i destroyed you and walked away
lit the fire and watched the flames
i haven’t seen you since i crushed you
haven’t said how much i love you

this is my apology
never been one to speak sincerely
this is my apology
never been one to speak too sweetly
this is my apology
i’m sorry for pushing instead of holding
i’m sorry for fighting instead of folding

i wrote songs for other muses
tried to bury sadness in stupid excuses
“wants a boy” or “clinging too hard.”
they were all doomed from the start
nobody knows me since i left you
tried but i can’t forget you

this is my apology
never been one to speak sincerely
this is my apology
never been one to speak too sweetly
this is my apology
i’m sorry for running instead of calling
i’m sorry for fucking instead of falling

spoken over rad riff n light drums:
okay, that’s a lie
i’ve been falling since the day i met you
but that doesn’t matter now
you know?
it’s like seeing a dog
by not bringing it home
or something
i don’t know

this is my apology
never been one to speak sincerely
this is my apology
never been one to speak too sweetly
this is my apology
i’m sorry for leaving instead of staying
i’m sorry for loving instead of hating